Canadian Search Diaries - 18th Month

Hello fellow Searchers,

anyone keeps a Diary of their search? I am going on the 18th month.
Deal flow is OK, but just nothing that clicks so far, with about 35 serious deals and lots of IOIs, about 14ish serious LOIs, and one countersigned flopped deal in this time. I am thinking if I am doing something wrong?
In hindsight I feel that I wasted a lot of time on prop deals, maybe I should have invested more time in it?
Brokered deals seemed a bit more expensive, but on average save quite a bit of time on education and deal vetting.

Doing a lot of meditation and listening to Will Smith daily. I can say that I definitely learned a lot and met many amazing people in this time. Thank you to all of you who I had the honor of meeting!

Good luck to you.
Ali